My Personal Journey to
Abundance
Chapter 1: How I Got Here
Before I begin, I want to make it "abundantly"
clear that this section of the website is My
Story. It is intended to address me,
where I am, how I got here, and what I am doing
to make things better. Most importantly,
it is intended to give insight and allow people
who may have experienced the same or similar
circumstances to realize that they are not
alone. I know the feeling of "I am the
only one who feels this way". And this is
not true, nor can it ever be. I want to be
very clear that I am a work in progress and
writing my experiences comes easily for me and
brings me inner peace. By all means, if you are
not interested in reading my story, please
don't. The choice is yours. I hope
that in the end, my story will help people to
move to a better place spiritually and have a
life filled with abundance. I know in my
heart that I will transform my entire existence
into happiness and joy that I once thought did
not exist. And when I do this, I want it
to be inspirational to others who are trying to
do the same. Finally, let me point out
that I want this site to grow to a wonderful
community for everyone who is interested to
share their stories and experiences so we can
all learn from them. If you'd like, please
read on....
To explain why I am at this point now requires
me to start with the cause: A
heartbreaking experience that pushed me here -
and in hindsight - it was no accident. It took some time to
notice, but this in fact was not heartbreaking.
It was a blessing. I didn't know it then,
but I do now.
Since my divorce 12 years ago, I have lived pretty
much care free; Working,
living and taking things in stride. I had
always been high stress with a left brain
existence that constantly had my mind in
overdrive.
 I
figured that was just me and that was how I
was always going to be. I lived a life worrying about my
career, money, material possessions but
definitely did not concern myself with
relationships as much as many others do.
I was sure that I would remain single forever, and
honestly, I had no issue with that. Or did I? After closer
examination, I found myself making excuses,
sabotaging relationships, hurting other people, looking for perfection
and ultimately bailing out when I didn't find
it. Uninhibited, meaningless encounters
came easily and seemed more satisfying than a
connection or relationship of substance.
Then it happened.... I met a someone for
whom I changed, someone with whom I
enjoyed sharing my space and my time.
It felt right. I couldn't exactly put my finger
on why it felt this way but it just did. I
didn't question it. Although in hindsight, I
see how wrong this relationship was for me, it
was something I never thought nor
expected I would have. So I took it all
in, I changed many aspects of my life, I changed my attitude, I
changed my outlook, I changed my daily routine
and welcomed this person in with open arms and
an open heart. For the first time in a
very long time I gave my heart with the
anticipation of something long lasting and I
liked it.
For the purpose of brevity, I will spare you the
unnecessary details at this point.
Nevertheless, the
relationship ended. I took an emotional
beating and my heart broke. I had never
experienced such a sinking feeling and I hit a
low point emotionally which also put strain on
my career. When I say "low", I wasn't
suicidal, I wasn't giving up on life. I
still did my job and handled my
responsibilities, but did them with little
vigor. I thought, I moped, I analyzed, I
rationalized and I questioned. But the
Law of Attraction works in wondrous ways, and by
no coincidence, I heard from a friend I hadn't
spoken with in quite some time, and this friend
introduced me to a wonderful spiritual center
for healing, spiritual training and meditation. I went
for a counseling session and a
reading, followed by my first meditation the
same week. Since then, so much has
changed. It was no coincidence that this
happened. It was my time and I felt it.
Part of me understood that my sadness came from
the fact that I was in my early 40's and thought
I finally found someone that made me want a life
with someone; a permanence; a home in my heart.
Another part of me knew how strong my ego was,
and how my left-brained mode of thinking was
making this so difficult to absorb and accept.
In time, and a fairly short time at that, I grew
to know in my heart that I could
ultimately thank this person for this
relationship because, in the world of spirit,
she may have been my best friend for allowing me
to get to this place in my life. The Law of Attraction
brought us together for an ultimate greater
good, even if that greater good meant a broken
heart and being
apart. I needed to understand that the Universe
offers only love to all of us, but only when we
are ready to accept, ask, feel and
let go. It is not easy, and I work on
it every day and every night. And now, I
am ready. I understand that my broken
relationship is no different than so many of
you. Everyone suffers losses and breakups
every day. People are crushed, torn and
shattered. So my situation is not any
worse or better than yours. What makes it
different for me, is what I am doing about it,
and how I am working to make all aspects of my
life new and abundant. While many of us
simply move onto the next relationship or a new
love, I have made a conscious decision to work
on ME. Better yet, I am allowing the
Universe and The Law of Attraction to work on
me!
CHAPTER 2: Starting My Journey.
To contact me about my journey or anything else
you see on the site, please use the
contact page.
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